Thoughts for another day

Dec. 5, 2012.

Today's verse: Jn. 15:5. I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. (KJV)

(Pls. read the above before you read further. Thanks)

Yesterday, I went for a talk of a fairly controversial person who claims the Lord has spoken to her for over three years and still does.  I'm not going to be dealing with her controversies or anything the churches around the world say about her.  And if I were to make a comment on her doctrinal fallacy, I'd only say that to me she didn't appear to give any 'heretical' doctrine but rather I was taken aback by her simplicity and mostly her approach to true life in God, which of a necessity must, I repeat, must, have holiness at its core, else the life is just a sham and hoax, not worth even talking about.  This is the gleaning I received and accepted, from her talk.

When I talk on holiness, you may assume I'm holy myself, which by far I'm not and I ashamed to say how unholy I am, so much so that I squirm before the Lord, tired and worn by my deep ingrained impurity and tendency to rebel against the Holy One, the Eternal and Immortal El Shaddai.  I wish like Job I were not, for then I wouldn't dare offend my Precious Lord who gave Himself up for me.  Deep in the night, at times I think, how dare I rebel against the Lord, Whose form spans the entire universe and whose glory sounds in the deepest cells of my being, which sometimes in a shallow way I echo in the form of sounds I emit from my mouth in prayer or song.  And I may not even be able to describe to you the wrath that is to fall on the sinful…it's utterly, utterly terrible.  You won't even want to hear about it; and remember, the paths of isolation from God are so scary that your hair can stand on its end.  So frightful is the thought that I guess 99% of preachers don't even talk about it and forget talking, they don't even know about it and they may tell you…Jesus has paid the price.  Yes, Jesus has paid the price of our sins fully, but have we accepted Him fully?  Think about it.

There're times, when perhaps like you, I'm so disturbed by my inability to change myself; and I cry to the Lord, 'Oh, help me, for I'm a sinner, disgusting in Your sight and a thing doomed to destruction!'  Which is when our Scripture comes to me.  'I AM the vine and you are the branches and if you abide in Me, you will bear much fruit for without Me, you can do nothing.'  I realise without Him, I can do nothing.  I also realise that I'm the branch and He is the Vine and I need to remain attached to Him, to be with Him always; a thought refreshed in me by the speaker I earlier mentioned.  I know, all I have to do is remember I draw life from Him and must continue to draw life from Him and in that He will change me to the divine: to shun sin and walk humbly before Him.  Then I will be complete: He in me and I in Him.