Thoughts for another day


December 8, 2010

Today's verse: Philipp. 1:6. Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ: (KJV)
(Pls. read the above before you read further. Thanks)

When I look at my life and realize there's a Ministry for God in it, I think again. I look at myself and see the dirt in me. I was just reading a handout and the words jumped out 'God loves to pour out His abundance on the obedient and the faithful' and I told myself, it can't be for me for how disobedient I am and yea, maybe, faithful, but definitely covered in sin. Perhaps many of us too have this great malady of sin looking down on us and seeking to swamp us in its wake.

How wretched I feel when I look at the quality of my life before God. Before man (who knows nothing about me), I'm the perfect example of a man of God – knowing Scriptures well and assumedly living them too! But before God all this crumbles into bits. My façade is destroyed the moment I go to Him for He knows even the innermost desires of my heart. And in this knowledge of being sinful, if I may say in a human way - beyond redemption, my heart rends in pain as I look at God and tell Him, 'Lord this ministry, please give to another for there're so many men and women who are much more worthy than me!' I also sometimes tell the Lord, 'Give me death so that at least by that I might stop sinning!' I'm sure He the LORD God, Master of creation must be looking and laughing. Jesus particularly reminds me, 'I chose fishermen to grow My Ministry, not scholars of the law or erudite men, abiding high in human terms!'

Then I look at our Scripture today and tell myself, yes, God has begun a good work in me and He will accomplish it in His time. Lest you think this is about me, it's also about you for if God has put a ministry in your life, and you feel you're not up to it, fret not for it is His Ministry and His choice of people and He knows whom He has chosen. You are the right choice so just stand up and thank Him that He intends to use you – warts and all.