Thoughts for another day

July 6, 2009

Today's verse: Lk. 5:8. When Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus' knees, saying, Depart from me; for I am a sinful man, O Lord. (KJV)
(Pls. read the above before you read further. Thanks)

It was blinding dark – the type where you can’t see anything, not even yourself, except feel you’re there. It stretched for miles and miles and I was trapped in it. I knew I couldn’t stay here forever and began to move forward. I moved and moved and moved, but the darkness didn’t end. I didn’t even know where I was going and whether I was moving in a straight line. I noticed all my senses had taken leave of me and I was in great distress. I was frightened, scared and I thought, ‘look at me; I used to laugh at the timid for I used to refer to self as the hardcore brave guy!’

I sank to my knees and cried out, ‘Lord help me, I know not where I am and how to get out for all I perceive is darkness.’ Out of the dark came a gentle voice, ‘Son, here I am. I’ve come to save you for I love you.’ Then in an instant, there was great light. The darkness just vanished. A hand reached out beckoning me to get up. I held on to that hand and was saved. I beheld, the Son of Man, the God of my life before me and there was such love in His eyes, I felt ashamed. I couldn’t look Him in the eye and blocking my view with my hand, I told Him, ‘Lord, please go away from me for I’m a sinful man.’ The moment, I said it, He held me close. I felt His warmth and a sense of being washed. He told me, ‘Have I died that you may feel ashamed or perish. If you believe in Me, why fear and despair?’ It was as if a load was lifted and a strange happiness enveloped me. I felt blessed and oozed joy. Then suddenly I awoke. It was 3.31 am. The feeling of joy was still deep in my heart. I sat upright and I praised Him, the blessed Lamb of God.

I now understood how Peter must have felt years ago. Deep inside me I knew my Lord had forgiven me and made me an inheritor in His Kingdom. I was happy and I knew, my redemption had happened…and I sang, ‘my Redeemer lives’. Gladness filled my heart and I knew I had to give this news to everyone I met and here, I’m making it known to you my friend; won’t you sing with me, ‘my Redeemer lives…’